Who Do I Run To?

Bringing home a toddler from a foreign country comes with many issues that you don’t really think about until you’re in the trenches. After being abandoned by her birth mom and placed in an orphanage, Jillienne had to learn to trust the nuns who were caring for her. Trust that they would meet her needs.

Then when she was placed in my arms, she had to learn to trust me. Thankfully, it didn’t take long. Now when she falls down and hurts herself she runs directly to mommy with her hand extended, waiting for me to kiss her booboo and make it go away. When she’s hungry, she trusts that I will give her something to eat. Yet still, she doesn’t want me out of her sight, following me everywhere I go, calling for me in the middle of the night. I often wonder if she subconsciously thinks I’ll leave her too.

As I think about Jillienne’s ability to trust, I think about my relationship with God. Do I run to Him first when I fall down? Do I trust that He will meet my needs? Do I worry that He will abandon me in my time of need?

What do you run to when things get hard?

Friends?

Chocolate?

Your spouse?

Food?

Your phone?

So many things compete for our attention yet the only thing we truly need is Jesus. Take some time this week to sit with Him and confess your tendencies to put others before your relationship with Him.

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